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Thursday, July 9, 2009

Bismillah ir-Rahman ir-Raheem



Today makes it 10 months and 5 days since da hubbier

have been away from me

and I believe I miss him so much more than ever.
I'm feeling in the dumps and like I just want to cry and scream!
I never thought it would hurt this bad but it does
I know he'll be back soon insha'allah
i just wished it would happen sooner rather than later!
I know I should be more understanable and believe that
Allah subhanahu wa Ta'ala
has a reason for everything but I just don't understand right now
insha'allah I will soon
Every part of my aching body wants to get up and pray istikhara
i need some real guidance and soon.
My mind is above water while my
heart is slowly drowing in misery
Next to Allah [swt] and our son he's one of the only men
I really still trust in this life
Maybe I should make du'a for myself inshallah
but that sounds a bit selfish!
I'm tired and my eyes areturning fire red from the pain

Insha'allah he'll be back in town soon!

Posted by Modern Muslimah at 10:06 PM  

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow sounds like your having a tuff time sis, i hope Allah eases your pain and guides you always onto the right path...

Hang in there hun:)Allah never gives us more then we can bear...

July 24, 2009 at 5:14 PM  
Happy Muslim Mama said...

Assalam-alaikam Sister,
I agree with Mina, Allah never tests us with more than we can bear and he tests those he loves to raise thier status in Paradise insh'Allah.

I used to think making dua for myself was selfish, but my aunty told me off for this, she said that Allah (SWT) loves to give to us and it pleases him when we ask him for what we need, so definitely make dua for yourself:

And your Lord says: Call upon Me, I will answer you.” [40.Surah Momin : Ayah 60]

“And Zakariya, when he cried to his Lord: O my Lord leave me not alone; and Thou art the best of inheritors.”
“So We responded to him and gave him Yahya and made his wife fit for him; surely they used to hasten, one with another In deeds of goodness and to call upon Us, hoping and fearing and they were humble before Us.”
(Ayahs 89-90 - Surah Al-Anbiyaa)

July 25, 2009 at 6:42 AM  
♥ Arab Mania ♥ said...

Salaam sis , that's so touchy :( i know very well what u mean and what u r going through... May Allah unite u soon !

July 27, 2009 at 11:10 AM  

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