Bismillah ir-Rahman ir-Raheem
Have you ever felt like you just wanted to run away?
just go somewhere and hide under a rock and
never come out until the world is perfect [yeah imagine that ]
I have felt so sad and miserable lately
may Allah give me the strength
to continue to hold and be the strong woman that
I know I can be Ameen!
I know running away is not the solution to my problems
but what can I do when staying is hard!
Its a quote that explains exactly how I feel
"Waiting is Painful;
Forgetting is Painful
But not knowing which one to do is the worse kind of suffering"!
And I feel every emotion behind
every word that was said.
How can I leave when there is nothing better for me
but how can I stay if this is not working?
Don't get me wrong I love my life but I just do not
know if I can handle this anymore!
I want to be strong heck I deserve to be strong
but for some odd reason I just am not :(
Believe me at times I feel like I am like
Superwoman or something as if I can conquer whatever
I put my mind to
While other times I just feel like I want
to give into the temptation of not winning
I just miss it when life made since when I knew
exactly why I woke up every morning
which was/is through the grace of Allah [swt]
and for my husband
Since he's been away I just feel like I
have lost every ounce of sanity that I had in me
Yes I have my son now and he keeps me happy but it
feel as if I'm neglecting him of a full, happy, completed
life because his Daddy is not around right now.
I know he is trying to better ourlives but geez I just
feel weak without him!
Wow after just writing that I just noticed I never
felt this way before I never needed
a man to make me happy, to make
me smile, to make me feel complete
but now I do??
Maybe this is what love do to you?
Love makes you feel like the most powerful human being
makes you feel like you can conquer the world
makes you feel like no one but Allah [swt] can stop you :)
I love love
but I do not like how its making me feel right now
Ya Allah
give me the strength to hold on to this special
gift of love and sabr [patience] you have blessed me with
see me through these hardships
Ameen
Have you ever felt like you just wanted to run away?
just go somewhere and hide under a rock and
never come out until the world is perfect [yeah imagine that ]
I have felt so sad and miserable lately
may Allah give me the strength
to continue to hold and be the strong woman that
I know I can be Ameen!
I know running away is not the solution to my problems
but what can I do when staying is hard!
Its a quote that explains exactly how I feel
"Waiting is Painful;
Forgetting is Painful
But not knowing which one to do is the worse kind of suffering"!
And I feel every emotion behind
every word that was said.
How can I leave when there is nothing better for me
but how can I stay if this is not working?
Don't get me wrong I love my life but I just do not
know if I can handle this anymore!
I want to be strong heck I deserve to be strong
but for some odd reason I just am not :(
Believe me at times I feel like I am like
Superwoman or something as if I can conquer whatever
I put my mind to
While other times I just feel like I want
to give into the temptation of not winning
I just miss it when life made since when I knew
exactly why I woke up every morning
which was/is through the grace of Allah [swt]
and for my husband
Since he's been away I just feel like I
have lost every ounce of sanity that I had in me
Yes I have my son now and he keeps me happy but it
feel as if I'm neglecting him of a full, happy, completed
life because his Daddy is not around right now.
I know he is trying to better ourlives but geez I just
feel weak without him!
Wow after just writing that I just noticed I never
felt this way before I never needed
a man to make me happy, to make
me smile, to make me feel complete
but now I do??
Maybe this is what love do to you?
Love makes you feel like the most powerful human being
makes you feel like you can conquer the world
makes you feel like no one but Allah [swt] can stop you :)
I love love
but I do not like how its making me feel right now
Ya Allah
give me the strength to hold on to this special
gift of love and sabr [patience] you have blessed me with
see me through these hardships
Ameen